Indie_Cupcake

My body has become so accustom to 4am work shifts that I can stay up 12hr if not longer on those days you'd figure hey you should be half dead but nahh we all learn to adapt to the situations and daily life we encounter.
If I can look like this at 3 in the morning life isn't so bad .

I've become recently hooked on a band called the spill canvas I've loved them forever but recently I've just been drawn to the music I don't know why but its just oddly comforting lately
September brings some new birthdays but those are too come at a later date
More important news my best friend nick left for his first tour of duty last week
goodbye calls are some of the saddest calls we have to face but we get through them for the I miss you calls and the welcome homes that follow eventually.
 

so in the past two moths I've done a ton of stuff
got a tattoo,
went to a strip club ,
turned 21,
took a risk,
flew hung over on a plane from illinoise to texas
. flew from texas to michigan
Got so drunk I woke up the next morning going what the fuck
.Met some really awesome people
Took a huge leap of faith and didn't eat dirt in the end
finished a painting
.Had my best friend live with me for a month 
Partied with some people I really missed
drank too much in a ten day time span that my liver probably hated me
got my nose peirced
found my love of margaritas
found out the fact when i drink too much tequila my head becomes to heavy for my body
johnny vegas and pudding shots are really good
when I'm buzzed I'm not that shy with new people
swimming in june up in the northern states is still kinda cold
a dog bigger than me can throw me into a tree
I'm bolder than I think sometimes
and threw all my drunken nights and hung over mornings I didn't throw up once
thats pretty fucking awesome
 

Lately I've been wishing that I could go back in time and every stupid decision my young self tries to make a could just punch my self and be like don't be stupid your smarter than that dumb ass. and in honesty I probably would actually be that mean to my young self because I know how hard headed I can be. 
ONE Months 3 days I'll be 21 and really drunk!!! yaya
Being up at 8am is interesting the lack of sleep makes me boldly honest with everything
I'm starting to think I'll never find that person that wont go away when things get hard or start to change
 

When I first opened this window I thought about everything going through my head and the fact that even though I say I'm going to lay it all  I really don't.

Truth be told the thing I thought I wanted most in the world the thing I've been going on about for weeks is probably never going to happen it's evident that some parties in the topic at hand have different priorities at this time and truth be told I'm not going to sit around waiting for them to want me when it's convenient for them.  I'm a great person I have my flaws yeah but all and all I and a wonderful person to my core. I'm not some stupid naive girl who sits around waiting to be pulled from the background when it fit into the way someone else is doing things.

another topic its my dad birthday next week hes getting up their but hes still his bad ass self




 

It's pretty interesting when you realize you've lost your way in your own life not really knowing what you want out of it all.

it's been 7 almost 8 months since I did something that took everything I had in me to do because I knew if i didn't the road I was on would of just torn us apart.

It's been 3 months since I left the state I spent my teenage years with the friends  and allies I made for myself.
The people that put up with my shit and turned to me for advice about things I didn't really know how to fix but did the best I could.
It's also been 3 years since that week in January when I dropped off the face of the earth just for a little bit.

Theirs a lot of memories and moments that are significant to the way we turned out  and only the people that were their remember and know how impacting that time was.

Sometimes I forget what I really want in life sometimes I let others opinions take over what I really think we all do we're human and that's human nature.
A lot of us daily bitch about how we're doomed or how bad this or that sucks in our lives.
But truthfully it could be a lot worse that what it actually is .
We all have secret moments when we wish things would just stay the way they are, where time would stop and the world would cease to turn and everything would stay exactly how it is at that moment.

 

I'm trying to cut back on my sugary evil soda intake but Dr Pepper has other plans I just cant stay away completely.
20 day and I see my dearest other half I'm pumped. ON an odd note I've began to use the word fosho a lot and i have no clue why I'm beginning to even annoy myself with it.
Any who Aveno is my new best friend it loves my picky ass skin and my skin loves it it's done a complete 180 in 11 days. unfortunately dirty clothing is beginning to take over the bottom of my closet and the floor of my room so I should probably handle that situation soon before I actually run out of clothing to wear.

 

 

                
  On a different topic a more serious one it has come to my attention through many people that someone
has begun to take advantage of the sweetness and nicety of my little sister dewi.
If you don't think I know who you are I do and if you don't nock it the fuck off I'll come up their and handle it myself.
260 dollars and a 4 to 6 hour plane ride isn't a big deal
when your messing with my baby sister
and need to stop.

<3 Kaci

I was going through a bunch of pictures today on the family server and I found pictures I never knew we had.
A lot of them show moments in the past that I only thought were memories.
Also I found like 200+ pictures my little sister took some would probably make pretty goo black mail lol .

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(Just FYI the pink alcohol in those glasses tasted like ass we all took like one sip and dumped it out)







These are just a few!
 

My little sisters BIRTHDAY!!

Happy birthday little sis I love you and miss you.
and I hope you have an awesome birthday

Today was an adventure being woken up at 8:40 am with the simple question
"HEY wanna go to Galveston today".
After a shower and rush to get dressed because I seem to be the slow one at getting ready today.
Finally we were on our way after having to go back inside because I forgot my camera
2 hours later we reached our destination with on hand I took about a Gazillion pictures of everything I thought was cool.

got to

       http://www.flickr.com/people/indie_cupcake/
    to see them

 

Happy New years I will try and update more often

 

 

I got a job in the mall 3-4 days a week working at old navy for 5 hours a day I pick up after people who show no respect for things that isn't theirs. Don't get me wrong I'm glad to have a job but sometimes it makes me want to scream.
I also went blond not that trashy blond you see so many girls with but a nice sandy blond.I don't know how long it will last though.
but only 3 months until I can actually see one of the people I care most about face to face and about 6 months until I go back to Michigan to visit all my friends .
I know I lead an exciting life at this moment right! (Note the sarcasm)